Still Alive 🌻

this... might not be important to you or anyone but i thought you should to know me first before our heart-to-heart gets really warm and closer.

“* ok, twitchy. *”

actually am not quite sure to telling you about this cuz im a bit nuts but i am. soo to especially you who didnt know me in person on the daily basis, i am suffer by depression and anxiety so im up & down. self-injury and the like has been my friends for a really long time. i wish they didnt exist in me, in everyone who's suffering by. i wish they would leave me like everyone else does. :)

to put it short and simply... i trying to be cheerful and happy, and bright-mostly as a mask. to covering up the fakeness of my life. all the things i’ve to pretend to like agree with... life with daily. i’d make a wonderful actress for that. and becomes so much experience cuz that. but it also helps; being happy. it turns my whole day around just doing something nice for no reason at all.... and it helps me forget my problems. i forget it all.... until i stop being cheerful. another nice thing about it is that other people get happy cuz of my bright attitude.... im not always happy and gitty. but ive tried. and still. it keeps me alive.

and i am still alive.