7/10

holla. how was your day?

hope youre have a great day in everyyyy single day. ^,^

^ . ^ ihihi ^ . ^

kita belum selesai ngobrol kan kemaren.. kita lanjutin, yuk? karna aku nyaman ngobrol sama kamu. i guess so what youve feel cus youre still in my blog. youre stay here, with me. i love you! :)

i have no mirror. and but without a mirror i'd say that i looked fine in this morning. it looks like..7/10 and have to cheers for it. :) oh, btw now is 5.50 AM. not waking up in early morn but dayuum, i actually still am awake. SO, A GOOD GOOD MORNING TO YOUUU!!! yiss, you should to take a many good things today. 

well, pagi ini kita ngobrol dalam keadaanku yang gemetar. im so sorry but at least i didnt do any dumb things yea you should to proud of it.  ya, aku tadi malem pergi main keluar. tbh i didnt quite sure to going out cus ive already know that will going bad but i just wanna did it. and i actually did it. and you know what? it was really happened at the coffe shop that was full of a crowd. im just like, shit, who's the hell lean on my back? huh? are they just mocking me? or what? what the hell was actually accured? why do all of those "HAHA" wont gave me a litle bit time for just enjoying the air with a live music? omg, every voices of the guest singers was sounds so cozy actually, they're so talented and i love it. BUT I CANT ENJOYED IT CUS THOSE THINGS WAS EXACTLY GOING ON BEHIND MY BACK AND FCK IT OFF!!!!! pls, mommyyyyy, it really hurts. and now they're pulled out my spine. *cried inside for someone helps*

umptieth, i was feel like im on a roller coaster that was rotated from head to toe. ive got a fckn trembling. my hands are shaking, my head so dizzing, my heart is burning, my eyes are blurring, and sobbing idk what i souldve to do at the time. goshh, im such a horrible person i guess.

swear, i really want to seek for help but i fckn cant. ikr its not gonna work out so i decided to keeping quiet cus i thought it would be better if i could handled it by myself and stayed an act like i am "truly fine". 

*" I WONTTTTT!!!!!! I WONT TO PLAYED THE BIOLA'S ANYMOREEEEE. I REALLY WONT TO DO THAT AGAIN. T_T "*

im too sleepy and 7/10 is ok. sleeping thru the shaking point is totally ok. :) see ya