how?

its been a while. hi! a mentally checking up.

as long as i thought, i just thought abt how to moving on. isnt totally abt a relationship but, its just like, y know..a life. a life, home, places, spaces, circles, and it cudve be everything. how to disappear, how to run gone away, how to keep moving forward for the better a little world in me.. especially for..um, finally im kinda like, wow, a mentally stable. ive always thought and still. and in this morn.. at 7.37 which while i still am awake and haha. hahaha. cool. *"cool its actually my ruts. dont worried."*

..and but i guess now i knew, that isnt abt what i write on top, bUT ITS ALL ABT MY FCKN THOUGHTS!!!!! abt how fucked off all of my thoughts. like, no matter how far and how great am i to just thinking of or just probably tryna moving on from place to place, or just makes some friends and or have the folks that actually kind person or just like having some good things.. but its like, who? who that gonna cares? i dont, im not that i do care, too. cuz i just lived in my fckn thoughts. i did dwelling me in me. and it might be 4ever. im suck. horrible and poor me. just poor me. i feel like i knew whats life supposed to do but i dont had a clue. not how, not why. just surrendered it. 

there's no more "how" but surrendered it.