24/7

hi, my 24/7, i can break the rules is just for you.

like, you know.. the Lullabies a novel by Lang Leav is related for anything of us without saying out loud. we’re pretty smart enough to see this clearly, right? i was lying. i was lied to you when i was said...oh, i finally knew it why i feel like im losing you is because another reason that i made. and but in fact is...the reason why i feel like i am losing you just because i felt in love with you more in day by day. and in our daily basis. and at the damn same time, i feel scared too. i feel guilty too. i am scared about losing my best of the guy best friend in my entire life. i feel guilty about why i cant more harder to do a fight to not breaks the rules and the builted that i made by my ownself to our friendship in a whole 7 years. and but one thing that i know, its not my mistake to feel like this. and its not your mistake either in every ways you treat me nice like this. bcs you know, youre a great person. and a nice person. youre lovable. and youre an amazing one of treating anyone nicer.

and you know what,

one another thing that makes me feel guilty even anger to myself,

its all too fast.

i dont need to know what your feeling and i wouldnt know but to me.. its all too fast to i felt this. i cant handle it mine. i thought my feeling is already too wild. i cant handle it anymore and im just like...i really am sorry for loving you.

now i get really mad for myself. and im really really scared that im gonna hurt you someday and im gonna hurted more too. thank you for being exist in my life and im sorry for anything and everything through i made to you but remember, i’ll always love you. gbye

love, A.